The voices within..

I realised something more this week. I realised how much I have grown but yet still how little I value myself and the gift of life that God has entrusted within me. As I sat in a room of 6 other sisters, all intuitives, all from ancestral healing lineage, I kept hearing this voice… ‘ they are better in so many ways than you’… ‘they are more intune with their gifts and their feminine power, what are you doing here? The runt of the litter?’.. ‘an imposter no doubt!’. The words kept coming, How cruel we are with the words we use to belittle ourselves..

I felt my body shrink a little as I placed all of them on a pedestal in awe of their knowledge and experience and all they give to the world and the women they serve. But maybe my life is not about serving the many but serving those I do in my day job and doing that well, whatever that looks like and wherever God chooses me to be to do that service.

So today I put it into practice more than ever. Wherever I was placed I saw it as an opportunity to serve.

Inspiring constantly to be better, do better, be more than is exhausting because it comes with a healthy dose of ‘I’m not enough’.

So I decided I’m just going to ride the wave, and go with the flow of the water and see where this great mother ocean needs me to be in my next stage of life. This may mean abandoning everything I thought I was, or had invested so heavily in becoming, and if it is so, then so it shall be, in full surrender and tawakkul (trust and reliance on the one true source, the divine) , kun Faya kun!

You are enough, you were always enough..

From my heart to yours,

Tahira x